Hadapi Dengan Senyuman

Hadapi dengan senyuman,
Semua yang terjadi,
Biar terjadi,
Hadapi..Dengan tenang jiwa,
Semua kan baik-baik saja,

Bila ketetapan Tuhan,
Sudah ditetapkan,
Tetaplah sudah....


Yes, I'm trying just to do that. It's hard, especially if in front of you, your sister and your 5th and 6th brothers are crying. It's hard to stop the tears from flowing. Even now, when I'm typing this entry, I can feel my eyes started to water.

You see, my dad went for medical check up at SJMC yesterday. We were worried because he just couldn't stop coughing, so we sent him there. After analyzing the x-ray image of my dad's lung, the doctor said to my sister that she was not happy with the outcome and she's afraid that my dad may either have TB or lung cancer. The latter makes me cringe!Cancer??Please Dear God, no. To make matters worse, my sister broke out crying when she called me. Knowing me, I couldn't control myself and cried too. Yes, at the office, in front of my officemate. With runny nose, and mascara+tear streaked face, I just sit my place and listened to my sister. It was heartbreaking. It never crossed our minds that one of my parents will get cancer. Although the doctor still hasn't confirmed the outcome of the analysis yet, but still, he's my dad..and yeah, he can be grumpy sometimes..but he's my dad.

And just now, my 2nd brother sent me an SMS (I think each of us receives the SMS), reminding the to bear the hospital bills together and not to leave the burden of paying the bills. Not that she complaints, but I agree with my 2nd brother. We have to share the burden. After i finished reading the SMS, I realized something, I'm no longer the baby girl of Haji Mahmud and Hajah Azizah. Yeah, I'm still the youngest, but no longer the baby girl yang kecik dan tak perlu dibebankan dengan responsibility untuk tanggung kos ubat and hospitalization of my parents. Ada gak rase sedih, bile kenangkan yang my parents dah uzur and they are no longer kuat and healthy as before. So, apa lagi benda yang I should have done to them yang aku belum buat? Better do now than regret it later.

Same goes to you, while your parents are still around.